20071109
'cause these are the days worth living, these are the years we're given.and because i am so afraid of losing everything i have.
so afraid of forgetting everything when i have too much to think.
so afraid of waking up one day to find everything so grey.
with the D3 "slutty" everyday heroes, Street Fighters, mad scientists, pirates, Austin Powers & Mr Bean.
SH DnD @ Grand Copthrone Waterfront Hotel
Arts Thank You Dinner @ Peninsula Excelsior Hotel
with my beloved House ICs & friends.
and something quoted from Hock's blog from sometime back:"Chonghan told me during O Week 2007 that house ics are like taps.
No matter how down or sad we may be deep down inside ourselves, when its time for action, we need to straightaway jump up and rara the houses or entire camp. Sometimes we put on a false front of laughter, craziness or a big grin, not becoz we are insincere, but becoz our job is to always brighten up the people around us. And to be professional and for the sake of our freshmen and councilors, we have to do that. =)
Maybe that explains why there's always a special bond among us, and how we can talk heaven and earth, even after fop haha. And i cant explain it, but i m always very happy when I m with either Chongz, Bobsie, Camy, Michelle, Xiao Indu or Julie."
he said it all, for me. (:
Orestes @ Harbourfront Dragon Gate Restaurant
D3 girls @ midnight kbox
JCRC dinner & Dina's birthday @ Sakura
with the good food and good company, and a treat from the President. and durian puffs! (:
Bao's ultra-belated birthday @ New York New York
cupcakes from Hock.
and all our lovely Tuesday lunches. (:
TH Night Cycling - Put the Fun Between Your Legs!
1st stop @ Al Azaar
with the stupid actions that rendered the stares of the passers-by, and the discovery of Planta Prata! it's how nice can? and the pretty-to-look-at Bandung Dinosaur!
2nd stop - the killer overhead bridge & MacRitchie!
3rd stop - Newton Circus
with us being so thirsty that we ordered 7 cups of drinks for 4 people. our satay and chicken wings. and the random uncle telling us that we should join the Olympics for cycling. HAHAHA.
destination: East Coast Park Jetty
Group 3!
D2 + D3 + E2 girls!
Joanna's 21st birthday!
the walk down Singapore River, ala tourists
drinks @ Eskibar
supper @ Sing's
my wonderful groupmates for this semester!
the "chaokeng" EL1101E group 2!
the multinational PL3242 tutorial group mates!
one from England, one from China and three from Singapore!
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY, XINYU! (:
the little ones who bring some genuine carefree laughter to the corridors.
Bryan, Heidi & Dominic!
and lastly, this from Mummy.
she is how cute can? it was raining, so she decided to pop by the Salvation Army next her workplace. and she saw this Kerropi for sale at $1. and so she bought it. and she blew it up to make sure it wasn't broken. and she propped in nicely on my bed, for me to discover when i return home for the weekend. and little things like this warm my heart. no matter what i have to go through here, and how people always say at least you learn and grow up from those, at least it comforts me to know that, somewhere, in some hearts, i will always be that little girl who loves her froggie so much that she lugs it everywhere she goes. (:so much smiles & laughter.
but so much sorrow at the same time.
thank you for showing me that i am not alone in this world. for letting me know that should the world fails, there is someone i can turn to. although i can't, but still, thanks.
but open our hearts, and fill up the emptiness, with nothing to stop us.
Labels: arts, family, girlfriends, hall, kaleidoscope, ofthyheart, school
group1 soared @ 22:23
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20070503
liberation, but only for a while.i need to say this out loud.
EXAMS ARE OVER!
okay, actually it was over 2 days ago on Monday. i'm a little anti-climatic and slow you see.
anyways, i'm absolutely wonderfully happy because it's over! it's been a real torture. goodbye Social Work and Sociology! welcome Psychology! and goodbye forever, Engineering. i hereby salute all Engineering students. how on earth can they major in that? goodness me.
heading out to KFC after the headache-y Social Psychology paper. it gave me the throbs. and the hall i took the paper in was terrible! it was really cold and there was some funny sounds coming from the lights/air-conditioner. and the seats were low! oh well.
heeheehee. I FINALLY ATE BOTAK JONES! -grinns- my Cajun Chicken! it's really good! the fries are a tad spicy though. but GOOD! can't wait for the Ricola dinner for more of Botak Jones. why is it called Botak Jones? is the boss a botak?
i really went crazy while studying. and my Korean friend taught me how to make funny (scary?) faces. haha. absolutely ugly but that's how i am when i'm deep in my books.
my BING BING cookie from Gwendoline! love the crooked smile.as i entered and left the examination halls, i didn't feel as scared as i was the previous semester. i felt, normal. the papers weren't a breeze, at all. they were quite killer-ish actually. but i simply can't find a reason for my lack of emotions. it's like i know i am scared, but i don't feel fear. i know i am unprepared, but i don't feel anxiety. i know i'm happy after the paper, but i don't feel any happier. perhaps the void really does exist, and in every part of me.
so the exams are over. and soon i'll be a 2nd year student. and, in the exact words, a "returning senior" for hall. haha. it feels so weird. i mean, it feels as though my freshie year has barely started. i remember waiting anxiously for my letters of acceptance from the universities, visiting the open houses, the interviewand ultimately, the decision. orientation camps, shifting in to hall and the start of the academic year. and now it's all over. so soon, too soon.
more photos from backlogs.
tcc-ed at Circular Road. on the day my heart sunk to an unretrievable level. perhaps it was the overwhelming emotions on that particular day that made me indifferent today. perhaps. i am thankful for those updates for the times when i was studying in hall. and i prayed for him during our nightly exam prayers. yes, he'll be fine. (:
"floating, falling, sweet intoxication!
touch me, trust me, savour each sensation...."
THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA! i must blog about this before i forget. a once-in-a-lifetime experience! the show was simply, orgasmic. although we were seated right up at the top because we're poor kids. but it was a good view! there was a live band playing below the stage! and my breath was taken away right from the very first scene. how the monkey musical box came to life, although i don't really fancy it because it's pretty freaky. how the chandelier came to life and hovered above the rich people who bought the front seats. ): how they sailed across the labyrinth, as though the entire stage was on water. how the candles came on and flicker in the dark. how majestic the scenes were, complete with the backdrops and the quick sets change. how pretty the costumes were. how clear and resounding the voices were. how everything just came to life, and how it was so real. i felt like i was transcended back in time and space, right to where and when everything took place. how it was so far away, but yet so near. how the very presence of the Phantom gripped me with fear. the setting of an operahouse within an operahouse, how complicated but yet simple.
i love every single minute, every single second of the show. and if you haven't caught it, please do! the cheapest tickets will do if you're not picky and if you have spectacles or lenses to rectify your myopia. it's something you can never miss. and i'm thankful for the company! i was so depressed when nobody wanted to make solid plans for this. and i would have lived in regret for the rest of my life if i had given it a miss. thanks!
finally, my post-exam activity! our BIG bang day! with Ellen and new-found friend, Melissa. (: it all started with suggestions to walk to City Hall because we have all the time in the world. 3 months to be exact. haha. yes, for the uninformed, that's the length of our school holidays. theirs, but not mine. explanations in future entries! eventually we took a bus and a train. haha. went to Bras Basah (is that how you spell it? the first word looks wrong. haha.) and got my book! Winnie gave me some ten bucks voucher and i only paid $6.80 for my paperback! (: and i pre-ordered my Harry Potter book too. i almost missed it by a day.
our highlight of the day was the DHL hot-air balloon. but when we went, it was closed for maintenance and we were so disappointed. but patient us waited at Mos Burger and chatted about everything under the sun. and finally, our patience paid off and we went on our hot-air balloon! my first ever hot air balloon ride! and we had boarding passes and annoucements to report for departure, just like a real flight!
we went 40 storeys up and had a breathtaking view of the city. the blinding lights, the busy traffic and the buildings, resting for the day. and as the wind blew against our faces, it felt like true liberation. there couldn't have been any better way than this to mark an end to the exams and the academic year.
dinner was at Sakae, Ellen's very first. haha. good food, and of course good company. i'm thankful for the day! for a wonderful friend, and another one made. (: thanks girls!
will be shifting out of my current room next week. and today, i spent so long packing! there're so many things in that tiny space! i can't imagine packing my home should we shift in the near future. after packing everything, it looks just like how it was a few months ago, when i had just shifted in.
it looks the same. but it's certainly not the same.
many things that i want to say, but i'll need time to collect my thoughts. i'll say them, someday. (:
and happy thing of the day: i dyed my hair black! jet-black. sparkling black. black black. (: Lay Joan, your twin is back in Singapore! :P
(:
sidenote: i just read through my entry before publishing and i realised the pendulum of emotions swung from end to end throughout the entry. i guess that's just how i've been for the past few weeks.
Labels: beyondwords, friends, hall, kaleidoscope, school
group1 soared @ 01:30
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20070422
i need to keep my eyes open.one paper down. sadly, it was a bad one. about 75% of the MCQs did not come from the lecture notes and textbook? like the 2007 Budget? and some speech by some minister? i am so so so dead for not keeping up with the news. without newspapers in hall. without convenient access to news on the television in hall. sighsssssssssss. ):
i have been studying in the library. was motivated to get seats in the library so we wake up bright and early every day to get seats! haha. i'm amazed by my own abilities.
and a new found love! REDBULL that gives me wings to fly. haha. i don't know how i remember that cheesey tagline. byt yay, at least it keeps me awake although i'm probably gonna die of diabetes after this exam period because it's so freaking sweet.RAHHHHH. i need to study. but i'm falling asleep. ):
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group1 soared @ 00:13
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20070418
exam stress.three more days to doomsday.
and a million more of material to get into my ever-puny brain.
futile attempts at studying. no seats at the library. unable to keep my eyes open. random tasks to do still. unable to wake up early. craving for home-cooked food. hates the hall food.
feeling the stress. but what am i doing?
RAHHHHHHHH. ):
): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):
Labels: heavingasigh, school
group1 soared @ 00:57
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20070413
130407 - a Friday.
exams are coming in a week's time. and i'm finally able to settle down to study after conquering all these:1. GEK1524 Test 1 (on 24th January)
2. PL2131 Homework Assignment (due 8th February)
3. GEK1524 Test 2 (on 14th February)
4. PL3235 Mid Term Test (on 26th February)
5. PL2131 Mid Term Test (on 1st March)
6. SC1101E Mid Term Test (on 7th March)
7. GEK1524 Test 3 (on 14th March)
8. PL3235 Gender Assignment 1 (due 15th March)
9. PL3235 Group Skit on Adult Attachment (on 15th March)
10. SW1101E Term Paper (due 21st March)
11. SC1101E Term Assignment (due 23rd March)
12. PL3235 Writing of Children's Storybook & Presentation (on 29th March)
13. GEK1524 Test 4 (on 4th April)
14. PL3235 Children's Storybook Review (due 5th April)
15. PL2131 Group Research Proposal (due 12th April)
the woes of a busy semester. i'm glad i'm reaching the end point soon.
but i wonder, do i still have strength left to carry on?
it rained. in my heart.
Labels: ofthyheart, project365, school
group1 soared @ 15:53
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20070208
080207.
and i haven't started on any. sighs.so much for wanting to pull my cap up this semester. ):Labels: heavingasigh, project365, school
group1 soared @ 23:31
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20070124
240107.
my FIRST test of this semester. 25% can? plus it's an engineering module! somebody kill me please! ):Wednesdays suck. timetable for Wednesdays suck. ):
Labels: heavingasigh, project365, school
group1 soared @ 08:06
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20070115
15012007.
yes, your eyes are not tricking you. i have a 3 day week! and i actually stay in hall.argh. this was obviously not planned for! check out the chunk on Wednesdays man. i have to go from arts to engin, back to arts and have a miserable 1 hour lunch (do you still call it lunch at 3pm?) and back to engin again. i am so gonna die! the tutorial slot was meant to be on Tuesdays! but the wonderful tutorial balloting system has decided to fail me again this semester. argh argh argh.
i am angry! firstly, i need motivation to wake up on Tuesdays so that i won't sleep the day away without any lessons. and i need food on Wednesdays! maybe i should go to classes in my sports gear and attempt to run from faculty to faculty should the shuttle buses decide to fail me, like they away do.
sighs. and school is torturing us with the idea of planning your own future with your timetable and the deep despair you feel when you realise that sometimes, not everything is within your own grip.
this sucks.
Labels: heavingasigh, project365, school
group1 soared @ 22:04
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20070112
omg school has started!the holidays are over and school has started! i actually spent the entire holidays having countless trainings and building up on my tan. my goodness!
hockey's over and we got CHAMPION! (: lost to the rivals and clinched a second for touch. nevertheless, i think the girls all did a great job! (: i'm kinda glad that the games are over, and yet at the same time, i kind of miss playing hockey! it was so fun! (:
school has started and i got my five modules, although one of it wasn't the one i planned for. survived one week of school and so far, it's been good! i need to work harder this semester to pull my cap score up! ask me to study hard when you see me okay?
and please, stop commenting that i look like a charcoal! and stop asking me what happened! i've been questioned like 583972 times on why i look like i belong to another ethnic group now. i think i shoudl just record my reply and keep it on a recorded with me so that i can play it over and over again.
it's been a pretty rough week. i haven't felt so shattered in ages. like what Ellen mentioned on her blog, "love is your weakness", and i really really feel weak this time. faced reality, or rather it smashed right into my face. perhaps the good out of it is that i'm cherishing the other more and more and maybe that's what He planned for me? disappointment with myself aside, i'm equally disappointed in some other people. was it just a facade? you're just not being fair. but i guess that's life. and that's the harsh reality of life. oh well. at least i'm appreciating what i have more and more now. thanks for seeing me through this, my friends. (:
fridays are off for me and i'm back at home, lazing around. and the cold weather makes it good for sleeping! (:
Labels: hall, heavingasigh, school
group1 soared @ 02:47
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20070108
08012007.
just check out the number of textbooks i have can? please two thick coursepacks. somebody kill me please. ):i promise to be a better student this semester! pull up CAP, pull up CAP, pull up CAP. i need to pull up my CAP! (:
Labels: project365, school
group1 soared @ 13:09
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