20070606
aloha world!i'm struggling to keep my eyes open to complete this entry. because i'm just so so so tired. ):
sometimes i wonder if i'm insane. insane enough to go agree to so many different things. do i think that i have 48 hours a day? apparently not. i think i barely have 12 hours a day, considering how my days fly away one after another.
first things first, Rag. it's driving us crazy. well, at least i can vouch for the 3 static girls. we spent the past week having training (in cutting and pasting stuff). and we came up with calendars, hierachy trees, materials charts, a Rag sign and are now halfway through our door IDs. and we went to the libraries and bookshops for research. this is one of our proud products:
we spent about 4 whole days on this sign. the measuring and cutting part was madness. i guess we kind of overworked ourselves in the first week. it's only the first week and we're dying already. tell me how to survive the next 10 weeks.and bad news of the year, marketing was thrown to us too. because we had no marketing personnel. marketing. think productions sets. man, it's like doing sets all over again. i've been rejected like 2509 times since yesterday when we first started calling. like Joshua says, it's like trying to ask someone out and being rejected right smack in the face. the feeling SUCKS. majorly. i'm feeling kinda depressed from all the marketing calls. ):
next up, arts camp. i seriously wonder if i can live up to the expectations, if there are any at all. feeling kinda scared actually. like, technically, i'm still a freshie! okay, maybe a stale freshie. but i'm so worried that i won't know enough or am not experienced enough to do what is asked of me. sighs. thankful for the friends who will be by my side. i hope everything turns out well! pre-camp's on next week! (:
that event. SIGHS. i couldn't reject it, and yet i wonder if i can really contribute to it. why must shitty things like this always happen to me? must. learn. to. say. no. it's so difficult to! i want to improve things but why do i somehow feel that i'll screw up and mess things up even more? how now brown cow?
tuition. it is madness. had a replacement class with some kids and i almost died. seriously. i just hope that i'll have enough energy to sustain this, at least for this rag period.
the love where the weakness lies. i can't believe that i've pushed it to so far behind my mind. too weak to maintain it, or to do anything more. i hope my decision goes fine.
and it was all too good to be true. thinking and seeing too much into things on the first time, and sinking too deep into it. never had such feelings for a long long time, and it does feel different this time round. i can only hope for my prayers to be answered. for me to be myself. and for good things to happen, if they are meant to be.
on a rollercoaster of emotions. up one moment, and down the next. i think i should learn to smile like this more.
struggling to stay strong in all,
juls
Labels: arts, hall, heavingasigh, ofthyheart, redcross, soccer, tuition
group1 soared @ 00:10
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20070303
030307.
celebrated Daddy's birthday at the Crab King place in Ang Mo Kio! after staying there for the past twenty years, i am ashamed to say that i've never been there before! how suaku can? and now finally! we had so much food! the super delicious buns, the tofu thingy that tastes like shark's fin, butter crabs, crab beehoon, HUGE prawns, deer meat and yummy vegetables! i love the buns the best, albeit them being the cheapest on the list. haha. i'm super low maintenance can? and i wish the hall uncles can cook vegetables like the ones i had everyday. seriously, i suffering from vegetables deprivation 'cause the vegetables they cook taste horrible. ): anyway, good dinner!tuition before the dinner was a lil stressful. i'm taking the Sec 3 and 4 classes now and i'm a lil scared. it's so different from the Sec 1 and 2 classes! i so need to prepare myself more for the lessons! hopefully all will be well! (:
long day tomorrow and my weekend is gone again. RAHHHH. ):
Labels: family, project365, tuition
group1 soared @ 22:22
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20070127
270107.
supported Weiliat and David for their national song-writing competition. the situation didn't do them justice with the unforeseen technical error and horrible MTV created that rendered too much laughter. their videos are like horribly HORRID can? first things first, MTVs are supposed to enhance the song that is being performed, not to make the supposingly touching lyrics look hilarious. seriously, the acting of those people did ZERO justics to Weiliat's lyrics. and secondly, if it's a MTV, the actors should be pleasant looking to the eyes right? i'm not in the best position to say this but from an objective point of view, i think the organising committee should have been more selective in their choice of lead for the MTVs. it's a form of respect for their own event. argh.those aside, i think they did great. the demo tape is good and it's a great feat to be a finalist! top 10 nation-wide! there'll be more opportunities! (:
did i mention that i had the suay-est day of my life? tuition was bad bad bad right from the start. rushed down from the East to the West, only to have the taxi uncle driving me to the wrong destination and insisting that i didn't say my words properly. and a whopping 22 bucks for the fare. argh argh argh.
Labels: hall, project365, tuition
group1 soared @ 23:08
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20070120
200107.
my toes are tired after standing for one whole day!i'll love anyone who provides me free feet massage after my tuition every Saturday! haha.
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group1 soared @ 21:48
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20070113
13012007.
yes yes, i'm fully booked on every single Saturday for the rest of the year. ): will be spending my mornings and afternoons in Simei, teaching the kids!no choice leh. no money. ): and at the rate i'm going, i'm going bankrupt soon. unless i can get a rich boyfriend soon. hurhurhur. :P
i'm still free on Saturday nights though! (:
Labels: project365, tuition
group1 soared @ 23:30
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