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yet another start.a few shots from some time back, that never fail to bring a smile to my face with their beauty in simplicity.
the sights in school can be quite pretty! taken from the Central Forum during Arts Camp when me and Chong took a breather from the crowd for a short rest. pretty little clouds. trees will fallen leaves. lots of concrete. but still pretty.
donuts from Alison! from across the Causeway, and it really brought a great big smile to my face, like that pink smiley donut! i love donuts! (:
Toadsie and Germ's piglet! so sweet right? (:and so we embarked on a new journey, a new start. feeling excited with all the hype of it, but still, i'm pretty afraid. with all the thoughts that ran through me when i was still struggling to make up my mind, with all the burdens and emotional baggage from those previous commitments, and some truth that blew my morale quite a bit. but i guess this is a new journey, a new start and i should do my very best for it. there's no point in dwelling on how people judge me prior to this, and what matters most is how people will judge me after i complete doing all things that i've set out to this year.
and ultimately, the biggest difference is that i actually chose to do this. my decision, my choice. although i always get the feeling that we were cheated into doing so by the president. nevertheless, i did accept the nomination, stood up to rally and sat through all the vote-counting. this certainly makes a difference.
things were on a slow start, but i'm glad to see how it's all fitting into place nicely. and the dynamics of the people is definitely something i'm looking forward to. some new faces, and some of the usual ones. but all in all, i have great hopes for this.
and with this, time is going to be so tight once again.
sometimes when i look at the people around me, i feel so happy for them, but deep down inside, a little loneliness lurks around. perhaps i do miss the feeling of simply having someone to talk to, when you're happy, when you're sad, and even when you're angry. the sense of knowing that someone is always around for you, somewhere. someone who doesn't replace my beloved friends, but someone who is special in a different way.
it's been so long. a void that's been left empty for so long, and perhaps covered and blocked from sight by the many other things in my life.
i've seeked, but lost faith from so many forgotten promises. and the irony of my avoidance when i'm being sought for is something i can't explain. maybe i've just lost a direction.
and i can only hope to find it back.
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