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choices.
it sucks to reach a standstill at times.
it sucks even more when you seek out for help but efforts are void.
and it sucks the most when you have to struggle through all by yourself, only to be lashed at by the same people who didn't even flinch to help.
if you think it's so easy, why not you do it?
i hate to say this, but i never wanted to do this. and i thought i could somehow convince myself that it's not so bad after all.
but i simply just can't, no matter how hard i try.
maybe i'm not trying hard enough. or perhaps i just can't. i'm only capable of so much, which is too little.
it feels like a wrong choice made, but i had to remind myself that i didn't have a choice.
and amidst all, this is the only space where i can bare my heart too. i found and lost one, and i'm back at one.Labels: kaleidoscope
group1 soared @ 17:34
xoxo