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flowing emotions.
i don't know how, or where to place my emotions.
i saw you, lying on the bed. you looked just like how you did the last time i saw you. it was at Wala Wala, i remember. you looked the same, if i can choose to ignore the tubes sticking out from you and the swelling that, thankfully, is going down.
i looked at Poh Boon and he looked back at me. we didn't know what to do. i took your hand and prayed for you. i called out to Him to bring you to recovery. i hope you heard it.
tears welled up uncontrollably in my eyes. but i fought them back bravely. in the hope that you can sense it. that you can sense the strength you have always taught us to have. you are strong. and this is the time for you to show your strength.
it's a real irony. how you have always been the one scolding us. how you put us into pumping position in the wee hours of the night at Sembawang Park. how you scolded us while passersby looked on. how you made us march with the first aid kits and stretchers down the roads in Safti. how you could go on and scold us, Saturday after Saturday. and now? we're scolding you. scolding you to wake up. for the drinks you haven't had with us. for the dinners you haven't had with us. for her who is waiting by your bedside for you. for your family who needs you. for so much more. you must wake up to scold us back okay?
i'm amazed by my own flow of emotions even though we don't have a rich history in friendship to speak about. if it hurts this much for me, i can't imagine how it is for the others. i don't know how to console you all, because i can't console myself. i can only offer a hug to you, a hug to show that i know what you're going through.
i think i sound silly. and i think that when you read this after you wake up, you are so going to laugh at me. at my silliness. and tease me with your mean comments like how you did when i was still your cadet.
fight on. we are all waiting for you.Labels: beyondwords
group1 soared @ 23:36
xoxo