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bad week.
last week couldn't have be worse.
juggling two jobs for the first three days. getting my results on Wednesday. losing my voice for the next few days to come. having people come up to me at the very last minute and telling me they can't make it/have to leave early on Saturday. having people not turning up at all on Saturday. bad encounter with the damned rafia string on Saturday. falling down on Saturday. embarrasing myself in front of tons of people on Saturday.
and i'm glad it's over. finally back to being a normal person. finally gotten my results. and FD Comp went well and is over.
what remains is a sore throat, a lack of voice. a torn sleeve on my uniform. a very ugly wound on my right knee. and a very lost me.
to all those who have given me advice as to where to go from now, thanks. i needed it all. i have no idea where to go. it's like you've been eyeing this destination all the while and suddenly you have to reconsider your choice because a)you probably can't get in or b)people from there tell you it's not as good as it appears to be. hai. i really don't know. don't ask me how i did (if you still don't know) and don't ask me where i'm going from here. i need my time to space out my thoughts.
and i hate the feeling of being in-between. a sense of not being here nor there. i don't feel comfortable and i seriously wonder if i ever will be.
group1 soared @ 23:40
xoxo