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breakaway.spiritual-doubt is officially
figured that i wanted more privacy. after that incident, i guess we can't be too sure of anything anymore. i've learnt my lesson. that old address was kinda wrong. spiritual doubt. those two words don't really go together in my life. apart, perhaps yes. but definitely not together. i know where i'm heading in my spiritual life.
mid year results are back. it's like a huge bomb dropped onto me. i'm depressed. very depressed. and there's this standard "how-to-console-a-friend-who's-got-bad-mid-year-grades" thingy going on. everyone's saying how it's okay, how we just gotta learn from this and work harder. the same words.
i don't really know how i'm taking this myself. i can't really find a word, or a string or words, to clearly explain how i feel. i guess the best words are numb and lost. numb because i've been getting such grades for like my entire college life? a couple of B's here and there. but nothing above that. not since my first three months days. how pathetic this is. and lost because i seriously have no idea as to whether i can graduate out of this college. graduation is not the point, the point is having a place after graduation. career fair sparked up all the interests, but with my current grades, how?
it's not too late right? i am pulling up my socks now.
now it's no longer about getting through the tiring weekdays of studying to enjoy the weekend. now it's about studying hard through the tiring weekdays and continuing with the momentum on the weekends.
we can do all things in Him who strengthens us.
anyways, i was so depressed yesterday that i did silly things. for example, i bought two packs of Powerpuff Girls stickers to amuse my sunken heart. and i have one ultra cute one on my phone right now!
Marie insists that it's retarded. it's not can? it's so cute! i totally adore it! i'm gonna stick the rest on my other stuff to brighten up the things around me. a different kind of retail therapy this is.
been buzzing around so much this week! tutorials, revision, incomplete holiday assignments. i'm glad the week's over. concussed on my comfty sofa last night at nine plus. the earlist i've ever slept in for years. all the way till ten plus this morning. i can't believe how tired i am.
anyways, hadn't had a decent chance to blog about my hot date with Marie. haha. dinner-ed with her on Sunday night! at Chomp Chomp! been wanting to go there for so long! missed those secondary school days when we always headed there after some school event. (: and the food there is still good!
had barbequed stingray and satay at Chomp Chomp. we actually finished it!
and we headed to Cartel for bread and waffles! still my fave in Cartel. (:
along the way there was this group of middle aged man sitting beside us. and they were so LOUD can? i was so irritated that i rolled my eyes at them and gave them THE look.
lol. they were seriously loud! people enjoying the night time then they talk so loud! spoiler.
ended the night with a walk/run to the busstop. i swear that i felt bloated for at least two hours after the meal.
enjoyed the dinner! great company great food. the usual recipe to a nice night out. (:
reality check. enough of fun for the past eighteen months. time to finally settle down and put my heart into my studies. which means less time online. and less blogging. oh wells. (:
group1 soared @ 01:04
xoxo