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block.
attempting to complete my essay but all i've got is a mind block.
long long day in school. and i'm still up now. without any naps in the afternoon.
i'm really tired. could hardly open my eyes.
and i didn't want to open my eyes.
i didn't want to see the pile of work awaiting me.
i didn't want to look at the situation and try to salvage it.
i didn't want to look at you and force a smile.
i didn't want to face reality.
i didn't want to see the things i was supposed to.
i feel exasperated. really. we're already short of people and you just gonna leave without informing me first? it's not like it's some sort of last minute thing? you signed up for it like long ago? and the least you could do was to inform me so that i was better prepared for the sudden decline in manpower?
i know i'm in charge and all. but you guys are part of it too, isn't it? i'm really tired and i need you guys to walk with me through this.
sometimes i don't get what i need.
i just propelling myself through everyday with the last bit of energy i have.
i'm not even stopping to think. i just need to get through everyday and get things over and done with.
and hopefully reach a day when i can finally open my eyes and let the sight that beholds me be what i want to see?
hopefully.
and they say, hope is a denial of reality.
group1 soared @ 23:39
xoxo