20050116
i've realised.
i never much went through the post-breakup period. that period of tears. that period of pain. that period of self-denial. that period of sinking into a self-pitying state. that period of standing up alone.
i knew that i only piled myself with lots and lots of things to do. i knew that i only tried to make myself very very busy. i knew that i worked myself to the maximum.
so that i don't have time to think. so that i don't have think to remember. so that i don't have time to cry.
it's all self-deceiving, ain't it?
i thought i was okay. but i've realised that i'm not.
i guess i do have to go through that period.
and i guess it's now.
just let me cry. let me feel the pain. let me go into self-denial. let me sink into self-pitying. and let me stand up alone.
i have to.
and i will be fine.
group1 soared @ 22:23
xoxo