20041217
on my way.
i feel. ACCOMPLISHED. i did five questions of Physics. haha. X: yeah, i know it's nothing to brag about. but at least i did something k? i shall continue to work hard. ((:
am i deceiving myself? i know i'm always telling myself it's not the end of everything. it's just the end of something but there're more things ahead waiting for me. i know i'm always telling myself that there's something good out of it and that i've found it. i know i'm always telling myself that i've gotten over it and it's nothing.
i know. but sometimes when everything just quietens down and reality sets in, i know i'm deceiving myself. yes, i'm on my way to walking out of it. but it's not enough. i need to convince myself more.
there's really no point in it right? i've really found the good thing that came out of it. i found the warmth of my family. i found the beauty of friendship. i found the strength of God's love. i experienced things that i would never have the chance to if it had not ended. i made friends whom i would never have met if it had not ended.
and most importantly, i've learnt to cherish. my family, my friends and God. i've learnt how i can never take anything for granted. i've learnt to realise who are the ones who stand by me.
i've learnt to cherish everything i'm blessed with. there are downs in my life, and that was definitely one great down of my life. but i've learnt to stop focusing on the downs. i've learnt to take a step back and look at everything in a different persepective. i've learnt that there are actually more ups than downs in my life. it's just that i was too concerned about being sad over my downs that i've forgotten to be happy about the ups.
i've learnt that there's more to things than what meets the eyes. and there really is.
i'm still trying to convince myself.
i'm looking forward to the day when i can look back and smile. smile at the silly things i did. smile at how i fell but how i picked myself up. smile at how i learnt and grew from it.
i know it ain't easy. but at our age, what do we know about such stuff? we're just walking and learning along the way. it's tough. it's tough to learn from ourselves, with nothing in reference. it's tough to fall down and pick ourselves up. it's tough.
but it's an integral part of our life.
yeaps. it's tough. but i can.
i'm on my way. ((:
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xoxo