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you.
i'm sorry that i came into your life.
but you know what? i even sorrier that you came into mine.
you're just someone who doesn't have the courage to tell why you are letting go.
you're just someone who is heartless enough to bear to see the one you said you love suffer.
you're just someone who is selfish to let me suffer alone without knowing why.
you're just someone who chose to hide behind those text messages.
you're just someone who thinks that love is a game.
all the memories. they remain etched in my heart.
i know the things you did and the words you said were true. our Eeyore. our forever. our plans. but i guess you just couldn't bring yourself to commit more than that. you just deceived yourself to think that you cannot. but you can. too bad you didn't realise.
and i will move on. i will move on without you.
i thought you had matured. i thought it was different this time round. but i was wrong. so you played me like you did with the others. i should have known better.
and to think i had faith in you. in us. i must have been blinded. i have faith in myself. but not in you.
my heart won't be a wasted heart anymore.
at least i got to know how you are like before i put in more feelings. at least.
fate gave us that last chance to meet on the bus. and i thank God for that. i thank God for letting me realise how i shouldn't be crying over someone like you.
nobody is perfect for each other. relationships take time. we take time to learn about each other and understand each other to fill each others' lives better. all this takes time. too bad you didn't have the patience.
you said this was a mistake. everybody makes mistakes. but the beauty of mistakes is when we step out to correct our mistakes the right way. not by running away. too bad you didn't have the courage.
i'm sorry that i lost someone who loved me.
but i'm even sorrier for you to have lost someone who loved you a lot more.
broken heart. but at least i'm growing up.
the painful way. but at least i'm learning.
i am strong. i can live without you. i'm perfectly contented with everything i have now.
you're not worth my tears.
i'm not hiding my feelings. there is this sense of loss and sadness. but i'll get over it. 'cause i know it's not worth it at all.
and if i ever do cry, i'm sorry it's no longer for you. it's for myself. i'll be crying 'cause i know i've grown up.
group1 soared @ 19:04
xoxo