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lost track of time.
yes i have. i need a break from everything. days have just been so busy that i hardly have time to breathe. i feel. exasperated.
saturday. biology test was a killer. i studied so much on DNA replication and translation and so little of those came out. and i didn't even study genetic engineering at all and the essay was all about that. i'm so dead.
dinner with the NDP instructors. (: steamboat. it was pretty nice sitting down with them and chatting over dinner.
sunday. the Iwate Red Cross Juniors are here! was so tired. woke up early to do my PW's written report and then rushed down to PS to meet Kevin Sir to get the stuff for the exchange programme. i was late. lol. so the two of us rushed about trying to get everything on our list. when we got to HQ, the attendance of the VIs was shocking. only ShuHui, YuHui, Fiona and MiaoLing was there. but thank God Royce, Mizael, ChingYee and Ziting rushed down in time. thanks alot guys! wouldn't have known what to do without you guys. (: then the Iwate people arrived! the girls were all so cute! rosy cheeks and cute smiles. (: language was a major barrier but thanks God everything went well. the evacuation was cool. i didn't know newspapers could lift up a casualty! and could see that they had fun during the traditional games. then they presented gifts to us! so sweet. we had this horse which i think is pretty symbolic in Japan, a hanky and this Red Cross keychain. when they had to leave, the VIs were all like so not willing to part. (:
dinner at the Tampines Changkat CC. it was okay. had a good time talking to Dorlisa Mdm and YuHui. and of course trying to communicate to the Japan girl beside me. luckily i had Gerald, the translator from RJC. i was constantly asking him to translate words for me. (: i guess it was a really cool experience to interact with the Iwate people. i wanna go to Japan next time! (:
monday. reached the stadium early too. had component training before the real thing. initially felt worried that the cadets were not performing up to standard. but soon i realised that it was just the starting of the day but once they got their momentum, their drills improved. (:
after lunch, we were all seated at the SIS while listening to some army personnel talking. then they invited Lin Jun Jie to speak to us! can you believe it! i wanted to run down but i knew i was wearing my full-uniform so i didn't. ): but still, WaiSeong took photos of him! (: so happy.
ZhongXiong fell sick so i took over as the DI. i was like feeling so stressed up? afterall it's the actual thing and i cannot afford any screw ups. walked with the cadets to the form up area. along the way, i was chatting alot to our marshall Kevin. he's really nice to talk to. (: when we reached the form up area, he suddenly went, "our last time here". and immediately i felt sad. ): i thought that i was really going to miss NDP. then i told William about how it was our last time here and he felt sad too. lol. it's like a cycle. but anyway, we took lots of photos with our trainers and marshalls before they formed up. when they were formed up and waiting to march in, i felt so excited for the kids! (: i was practically jumping about! and i teased Lawrence Sir too! X: when they were about to march in, Lin Jun Jie walked past us! so near but yet so far again. but WaiSeong helped me take photos again! (: Dorlisa Mdm helped me to pass my JJ cd to her friend who could help me get it autographed! i hope he can! so exciting! (:
then me, WaiSeong and Royce went to the spectators stand to watch the parade and my Lin Jun Jie! so cool! so near to him! (: took lots and lots of photos again. then we went down to Gate 2 and waited for the march past! the colours party rocks! they're so smart! YuHeng and i are in love with them. (: we've always been peeping at them! X:
the parade was a great success! went back to HQ. saw Kee Tat Sir at building opposite HQ. he actually recognised me and waved to me first! (: it's been ages since i've last seen him. i wonder how different things would have been if FADD is still around.
had our party back at HQ. was crapping with the instructors and William, trying to gobble up the chocolate eclairs and hiding them for Kevin. lol. the cadets were taking photos with everyone else. (: i'm really gonna miss the lot of them. NDP's been like a part of my life. like every Saturday, it's NDP. Saturdays without NDP now feel weird. plus all my super nice instructors! i'm gonna miss gossiping with them. i'm gonna miss walking into the SIS. i'm gonna miss having dinner on the floor. i'm gonna miss bitching about the SAF medics. i'm gonna miss watching the parade from the back. i'm gonna miss peeping at the colours party with YuHeng. i'm gonna miss our crappy marshalls. i'm gonna miss the bus rides there with all the Spongebob songs and cheers from the girls. i'm gonna miss the dinners with the instructors after NDP. i'm gonna miss everything. *sad* ):
tuesday. the leadership course. i was so tired that i almost fell asleep! goodness. but i got to know more of the other CCA leaders better. (:
today! IEEE Science Symposium. missed school to go to NTU for that. our presentation was like rushed out? but still we tried our best to present. and we were so jittery in front of the judges! the RJC teams were like so good? but after waiting for like half the day, the results were out! we got runner-up for our category! (: AJC and RJC took all the prizes. so cool.
winning unexpectedly. that's so cool. i never thought i could win stuff. this is definitely an encouragement for me.
time has been like slipping silently past me! i so need a break. but now that NDP and Iwate is over, i can finally concentrate whole-heartedly on my studies.
sometimes i really wonder how some people just can't work. you commit to a thing and you stay committed to it. you don't run away just because you've got something new to do. you need to priortize. you're not the only one who has CCA. you're not the only one who has tutorials. you're not the only one who has tests. you're not the only one who has projects. just beacause you've got something else to do doesn't give you a reason to throw your responsibility to someone else. and even if you do, the least you can do is to get things prepared and not just leave the threads hanging for others to pick up. that's the least you can do to help. don't you think that you're being very unfair by simply throwing your work to others? you are.
and if you have promised someone to turn up for a event, please do. if you really can't, the least you can do is to call and inform the person beforehand and not just wait till the person realises you're missing? you all have been through all these before. you know it is not easy to plan and get things going. your act of selfishness is not helping. at all.
i feel exasperated. all the picking up of the threads and making sure things go well is tiring me out. don't question me if you don't see me being active for a long time. i'm sure some people out there will understand. a job is fun is the people you work with are responsible and selfless. but sometimes people are just not. and that is such a turn-off.
i need someone to tune me back. i need to get back on track and staying there. but most importantly, i need a break.
group1 soared @ 19:49
xoxo