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talked to szeloong earlier juz now...
got reminded of everything about him... & tears almost streaked down my cheeks...
"control!" i told myself...
haiz...
its such a coincidence how the 3 times it ended, i was sitting in front of the computer, staring at my messenger screen...
the 1st time in my room, after which i logged off & went immediately to sleep... trying hard to control...
the 2nd time in don's room.. i immediately closed the door for fear of Mum seeing me... & consoling me was EJ.... i wasnt able to control my emotions...
the 3rd time in don's room again... likewise i closed the door... & i called peishi... tears were flowing down also...
looking back, the impact the internet has on my life is huge...
i knew him thru the internet too... thru irc..
& it started...
a good thing or a bad thing?
i always say i have a bad memory... but just how bad is my memory when i can remember everything about him? even the tiny little details...
how long will these memories last?
& right now, i am thinking..
he & i, we have different ambitions.. different paths to take in the future...
will our paths ever cross again? when he finally has time for me?
group1 soared @ 01:21
xoxo