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jargon-ing.
NIE interview was good. the three interviewers perked up IMMEDIATELY upon hearing that i'm currently relief teaching. and the rest of the interview was none of the "why do you want to teach?" kinda questions. it was more like a sharing session about my past month in teaching. nice nice. (:
and on that very same day, my THICK package from NUS arrived! -dances around- it's my much-desired-for FASS! i really really have to count my blessings to get a place in both my first choices! that was day one of ultimate happiness and also day one of the headache. which one now? NUS or NTU?
NTU is the safe way cause i'm guaranteed a place to read psychology while NUS is the place that i set my goals on months ago when i was preparing for As. this predicament reminded me of the AJ/VJ situation. oh dear. but still, thank you all for the invaluable advice, especially from Von Mdm! (: still considering, and asking myself what do i really want to do in the future and where do i really want to go. it's gonna be a tough decision, i know.
from the words of Pastor Lian, "if you ask for a miracle, you will receive a miracle". thank you Lord for the miracle! i remember this note i posted on my handphone during the pre-As days and it went something like "miracles DO happen - you can do it!". something along those lines. it was meant to be a motivation for me everytime i get distracted during studying and reach for the phone. miracles because my grades at that point of time required one for me to get past J2. and a miracle it is. perfect grades they are not, but in my heart, i know the miracle that took place. thank you! (:
exams are on for the kids now and the stress is on for me! will my kids do well? i'm really worried. i hope that i, this untrained relief teacher who is only some six years older than them, have not messed up their studies. i'm REALLY REALLY worried. -keeping all fingers crossed- can i cross my toes too? ):
somehow along the way, i've learnt that if we have to do something, we have to do it. this is like DUH. but ultimately what makes the difference is how we choose to manage it. choosing to embrace it with a smile or facing it with resentment will make the difference. so many times i've unknowingly put on a scowl when i could simply replace it with a smile. and with that scowl, i killed my own self. things flow better with a smile and that's how i want it from now. (:
pardon me for my incoherent jargon. tomorrow's the official last working day for the week cause Friday's Vesek Day! LONG weekend! (: and next Tuesday is another day off in lieu of the Polling Day! besides the point that i'm actually not getting paid for all these days off, being able to get a good rest sort of just diminishes everything else. (:
enjoy the long weekend ahead! (:
group1 soared @ 21:42
xoxo