20060103
two-oh-oh-six.
it was a bad end to year 2005. it was firstly darn difficult to adjust to my new life. the transition state from a student to not being one. the long and wrong hours of working. trying hard to catch up with my different groups of friends, which i've sadly failed in. managed to grab a few here and there, but i'm still far. and taking on new responsibilies. responsibilites that i never imagined myself to take on, and responsibilites which mean less sleep.
what's more, i've not settled what i need to do. what i need to talk to you about, and if anything should happen, what? and it's not just that. there's just too many pending issues left unsettled, some of which i hope never existed. and Sis is going through a rough patch in her life. and i've become the elder sister to be there for her during this period. it's so heart-wrecking to see her in such a state because i know how it feels. it feels like a sense of bad deja-vu, with the only difference being the subject.
and i fell sick. ): started with a bad blocked nose to a sore throat. and constant coughing now. i feel like my lungs being coughed out everyday. and i sound bad.
i just couldn't pick up the pieces fast enough in time to embrace the new year. and it's already the third day. i have no idea what to expect out of this year. i know it'll be an important year. i'll be getting my results and knowing whether i can get into my course of choice. as the days tick by to that day, i'm losing my faith more and more. i'm really scared. but what can i do? i really don't know.
new year. and new year resolutions. i know in my heart what i want. (:
this shall not a new year for me yet. i shall start my new year when i've fully pieced my life back together. when i can stand firmly on my ground. when i can grasp reality. and till then, i need a break away from everything.
group1 soared @ 02:06
xoxo