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it feels like this.
i reach out my hands and i can no longer feel for the things that i knew i had safely in my grasp.
i close my eyes and i can no longer see the peaceful break and serenity.
i try to force a smile and i realise i'm losing the ability to do so.
everything is moving way too fast. i feel like i'm caught in an upward spiral. to nowhere. bleak. dark. that's all the words i can put into whatever i'm feeling right now. and for the past few days.
maybe there has just been far too many peaks this week. and the transition is too much to handle.
everyday is like a race. i'm just getting around in college with everyone and everything else whizzing past me. it's like, everything ends before you know it. and everyone else has left before you even realised it.
don't think i'm making any sense here. nobody will probably fathom such randomness anyway. whatever it is, the downward gradient of my sinusoidal curve ain't easy.
group1 soared @ 22:57
xoxo