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breather.
i seriously wonder how long my hiatuses can last. seriously, there's so much that's happening that i don't wanna leave out anything. a hiatus will not keep me away from the computer. my own attitude will.
taking a breather from my maths tutorials. i'm happy with myself 'cause i'm only left with ONE single maths tutorial to be completed! and half of a chemistry one! and the rest is revision.
thought about quite a lot of things recently. for one, my studies. now that i've finally settled down and started studying, i've realised that there's just so much that i didn't know! i simply read through the notes, trying to memorise the obvious formulae. and so the consolation is that maybe i do have my fair bit of brains. just that i haven't been putting them to good use. and hopefully, i can "qin neng bu zhuo" now. don't think i got the hanyu pinyin right. anyways it's like making up for the lack of brains with hard work. hopefully.
and about them. sometimes i really wonder if i'm your own flesh and blood. and it doesn't help that i've got a sister who's perpetually sowing discord. i don't even know what's happening around anymore. is it just me? or them? why can't they see things the way i do? why can't the realise the importance of motivation over rewards? why can't they understand me?
and i'm really irritated with my sister. argh. i don't understand her, even though i've tried. i'm amazed at the words that came out of her mouth. it's enough that you talk bad about others. but about your own sister?
Morrie said, "Love one another or die". what if you've really tried but you simply can't?
nevertheless, Dad stayed all the way up till 3 am to record 5 People You Meet In Heaven for me. i was so dead after studying that i just died on my bed without realising his sacrifice of sleep. and i'm really touched! although i couldn't find the words to express it. and i'm glad too. for he watched the show and understood it. maybe someday they'll understand.
days will be spent studying in school till 7. and more work at home after that. hope i'll make it through. alive. my only wish is to catch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory next week!
and ya! i successfully donated my blood without fainting. but the freaky thing was that everyone else seemed to know what happened to me last year! Mr Ng was forcing me to eat something even though i told him i had taken breakfast! and 3 nurses had to crowd around me when the needle was inserted. my goodness.
without tears, we won't appreciate the beauty of a smile.
without pain, we won't appreciate the sense of euphoria.
tough times like this have taught me to appreciate the little things around me, and to realise that who are the ones who really care.
group1 soared @ 23:31
xoxo