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jumbled thoughts.
back. not much of a hiatus huh?
anyways, thanks Ben for guest-blogging! lol. really loved how he made the tale of my naked toes so interesting. yeaps. Mr Toes is still naked. )): he only has a measly plaster shielding him! )):
maybe i can say that life's been getting better?
or maybe i'm starting to see the glass of water as half full instead of half empty.
for a start, i passed my Physics! and it was above Mdm Tay's expectations! and way above my own expectations of myself too. i feel motivated. absolutely. there are times when you just get this boost of motivation to work harder. and this is definitely one of them. i'm really glad the five of us didn't let her down.
grades for this term ain't that great. but my GP sorta improved! i guess the bridging gave me more confidence in attempting the paper. call me crazy, but i volunteered to go for the second season of bridge. oh wells.
that's studies for now. the majors are like 3 terms away? i need to buck up more. ((:
the team got into the finals. barely scraped in. nevertheless, i'm happy! we missed our chance last year so we gotta win it back this year! ((:
i'm really proud of myself. i'm happy if you're happy. of course i'll be happier if you're happy with me. but still, i'm happy as long as you are.
that's how it works right? no hard feelings. nothing. sometimes it's all about letting go.
are we really growing up?
i guess i never really sat down and thought about what i want to achieve in my life. sure, i wanted to be a doctor. set my dreams and there i am in science. but i guess that was not what i really wanted. i was just going the conventional way. i was just following the crowd. but now i know. regrets of not going into arts. but hey, it's not too late right? thank God. i'm glad that now i know what i want to major in. and i'm glad that now i know where i am aiming for, and that gives me the drive to work harder. ((:
and yeaps, it's been one long year.
i remember how we plunged into it, not knowing the challenges that await us. i remember the tough times - the late nights of proposals, the recce, the AOPs, the camp and the accreditations. yeaps, of course the evacuation accreditations which i took forever to clear. i remember the bonds made - my Day 4 Committee, my group Bravo, the F&B people and of course, the entire of VIP 01/04. i remember the long-lost enthusiasm. i remembered.
so much happened in one year. but time flew. a short year? or a long one? you decide.
everything led to today. i wonder what today would be if i had made different decisions in the course of one year? would i be happier? or would things have been the same?
and of course i remember you and you. such sweet memories. how everything sparked off. and how they ended. i guess it was just the wrong time. maybe things could have been different.
that's the past. one can only reminisce.
group1 soared @ 00:24
xoxo