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deceit.
why do i feel like i'm hiding behind this facade of emotions?
why do i smile at you when tears are really forming up behind my eyes?
why do i look i'm well on track when i'm really struggling beneath?
why do i say i'm okay when i really am not?
why am i pretending to be strong when deep down inside i'm really crumbling down?
why do i act like i don't feel a thing when mixed emotions are running deep inside me?
why can't i get away from deceiving myself?
i don't know.
everything is just so tiring. too tiring. i just wanna run away.
run away.
to a place where i can cry when i want to.
to a place where i don't have to hide my struggle.
to a place where i can look at you and say i'm not okay.
to a place where i can stop pretending to be strong.
to a place where i know my own emotions.
to a place where i don't have to deceive myself.
run away.
if only i could.
group1 soared @ 02:12
xoxo