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things happen for a reason, right?
you think i find pleasure in trying to get away from you? it's not as easy as you perceive it to be. all i wanted was a break away from everything. you promised it but yet you had to break it.
don't keep telling me to put myself in your shoes. it works both ways. you know it.
i was preparing for my last paper and you happily texted me and called me just for a movie. can't you try to understand? you say you do, but sorry. i can't see it.
you make me sound as though i'm obligated to reply every single message you send. do you actually know how many messages you've send? and do you actually understand how much time i have to entertain you every single time? if they're messages asking about serious stuff, i'll definitely reply. but you just had to send messages asking weird questions. and when i don't reply, you asked me not to blame you fpr "being ruthless". hello? the last time i checked, i DO have my freedom in doing everything. i am NOT obligated to reply each and every message of yours. you can't make me do that. get back to reality.
and the fact that you simply assumed i was attached. and even telling me how all your friends say so. ya, like your friends even know me to know that i'm attached. and for the last time, i'm NOT. i'm not attached and even if i am, it's my problem. stop wishing me all the best for me and my supposedly boyfriend. it's not funny at all.
and what about you being disappointed in me? i was busy packing for my camp, nursing a bleeding nose and trying to get sufficient sleep before the camp. and i did send you a message before i slept. and that's how you got disappointed. ha. should not have even bothered to send anything to you. and to think you even questioned when i stopped replying you. ask yourself.
you asked me to put myself in your shoes. i did. and i don't see why you're doing the things you did. all you could have done was give me the break i wanted. things would have been better.
and the best part of this is, you're not even close to me. for your information, this IS my life. who do you think you are? you're just stepping in. and that does not give you the right to try to rule over my life. it's not working. it never will.
lastly, give me and yourself a break. i'm sick and tired of this. just give me back the life i had before i even met you. i'll be totally grateful. just get back to reality. the world does not revolved around you. this is not the fairy tale you wanted. you'll have to understand how some things just do not go your way.
ha. why am i even wasting my time typing all this. i just wanted to get it off me. i'm feeling so exasperated. now you'll know why i'm so not into relationships and all. the thought of them is plain scary.
ah. whatever. as if anybody cares.
group1 soared @ 01:30
xoxo