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an old man on a bicycle. cycling slowly as the whole world whizzes pass him. focusing on just his destination. the world moves but there he is, in his own little world. nothing affects him. he just wants to ride at the speed he wants, do things the way he wants.
me. just like the old man. me. in my own little world. me. just shutting out everything and everyone else.
surreal feeling? but it IS a dream. reality does not allow me to ride slowly. the world is moving so fast. everyone is working hard. only me. i'm still in my little world thinking that i have all the time in the world. reality requires me to pick up pace and move with the rest of the world.
the feeling is exasperating. many times have i tried to catch up with the rest of the world but my results simply prove otherwise.
i tried to tell myself it's okay, but i know it's not. it's not.
i know i have to wake up to reality. it's either now or later.
my life is going down. way way way down.
mood-swung for the entire week. irritated and got irritated by everyone else. trying hard to concentrate during lectures and trying to get past tutorials. getting back results which are totally bad. fretting over the incomplete PW and snapping at incoherent group members.
and i thought you were there to walk with me through this. i thought.
group1 soared @ 01:21
xoxo