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i feel like my decision to stay in AJC is not right at all.
one of the greatest reasons that made me stay was the commitment to it. but now it seems like it's better off without me around. all i did was to just stand around and watch you guys do it. maybe i'm even obstructing you all? i thought that i would only be away from it for a short period of time to work on my camp. but even after that, i feel so distant from it and from you guys. and i never expected things to turn out this way.
i feel so. hurt. i don't hate you or anything. i'm not angry anymore. i guess i just need some time alone.
maybe if i hadn't stay in AJC, things would have worked out better?
group1 soared @ 21:54
xoxo