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i went back on my word. i'm not going to turn back anymore. yes, i didn't get to talk to him. there i was, all excited & prepared to grab that last chance. there were chances, but when they came, they made me realised that there times have changed. there seems to be nothing that i can talk to him about, face-to-face. when i actually plucked up the courage to sit down next to him, there comes this sudden emptiness & then i seem to have lost my words. so i ended up talking to the guys beside me, & he to the girls beside him. where are the words that i'm dying to say to him? does't he has anything to say to me either? people always say when you break up with somebody, you can never go back to what you two used to be. i used to not believe that, but now i do. what we used to be, just as friends, is so much better than this. an invisible barrier that's between us. so this is where it ends.

& my friends. when i saw melissa & sally finally, there was this immediate urge to go up & hug them. i guess it's just that i haven't seen them in such a long time & now that they're there in front of me, i just couldn't believe my eyes. they've only been away for a short period of time, so i cannot imagine how next year will be like. i promise to do my part in keeping in touch with them.

parting is sad. but i guess that's something you have to do to get on with your life, right? i got to move on & stop thinking about something which is impossible.

group1 soared @ 23:11

xoxo